We’re halfway through the year yet it feels like I got pushed back to the beginning unexpectedly. My body is back in fight or flight mode. My nerves and feelings are through the roof. It’s crazy how my heart reacts to just one moment. No matter how brief it was, I get hit with such a high, it’s amazing. The familiarity. My soul just knows. It’s when that high starts to settle though, how can I continue after? I’m back to day 1 again. What kind of sick torture is this? It’s not as painful as before but it’s still a mental struggle I have to endure. I have to keep living. Not get stuck, not shut down. Just try again to push through. There is no anger, hate, or resentment in me. I am sad but love always remains in the end.

I feel drained though and it sucks. It’s okay though. I’ll be okay❤️