My birthday passed and I didn’t do anything special. On a Friday, while my husband went off to work, the kids and I went for a little shopping and ate at a restaurant. By 11pm, I was home and getting ready for bed when the husband surprised me with a chocolate mousse cake and wine. It was perfect; Simple and cute.
I started wondering about myself and my life. Nothing bad; just remembering certain parts of my past and decisions that lend me to where I am today. The changes I’ve made to myself emotionally and physically. It’s been a roller coaster.
As I’ve gotten older, my shyness level has decreased, my confidence increased, but the chances of taking risks is still the same. Not sure if that comes with age or because I have kids but either way, it feels good. I guess I kinda stopped caring what people think about me. Negative energy/people, be gone! I simply don’t have time and care for such thoughts.
If only my 15 year old self would have thought this way but then I stop that train of thought. I wouldn’t be where I am today. I do think that taking certain roads in life shape a person for better or worse; different experience and outcome. There are certain things I’ve done that I wish I never did, but if it wasn’t for these unpleasant passages, I would be somewhere else today and honestly, I don’t really know where that place would be and I don’t want to know. I’m happy where I am now. I don’t wonder about the ‘what-ifs’, and ‘could of’, ‘should of’, ‘would of’, because I think the moment I do, it makes me think that I’m not happy with what I have now. The past is the past and reminiscing what could have been makes one feel anything but happy.
I’m very grateful and content with my life and it’s not over yet. I’m still growing and learning. There are so many things to look forward to. There are still a lot of things I want to do. All in due time; taking it day by day.
BTW: I turned 31 =^.^=